Hi

So I am still in switzerland...things are going pretty well...well, except for th fact that my dad took a spill so bad yesterday that he has been bedridden since he got home from the hospital...he fell and landed his chest on his pole at rather high speeds....I'm worried like hell about him...he has some problems breathing and it hurts him to move...and he doesnt handle pain well, and right now I think he is being very self critical....and it sucks because he is not going to be able to ski for these next couple of days. I went up to the slopes this morning myself to avoid being with my grandmother, nd it kinda sucked not having him with me....but I had fun on my own...my brother doesnt ski quite as fast as I do and I did about three hours this morning of serious non stop skiing...and my legs feel like they are going to fall off.

in other news, I have been generally okay....its rough having my brother and his girlfriend here being all lovey dovey....and I am still beating things to the back of my head...and even though I keep saying I have given up, sadly, I havent....cause just before I go to bed I still have to beat thoughts out of my mind....and tell myself to ive up...it's all well and good, but it doesnt work very well....oh well, life sucks than you die. I really wanna finish this freaking quilt though, because maybe it will be a little easier to let go once I do that.

Anyway, peace, I am off to take care of my Dad.